slept during lunch. phy tchr din come again, busy with o2. super lagging in phy tutorial, really lost in e field. must try to catch up during d long weekend. haiz. compt next fri. sian. dun think i'm suitable to be a sports / compt person.. dun have the mentality for it, like not playing to win and being aggressive but just trying to play my best and appearing nonchalent about the state of the match. n i'm not ready for compt. it's a disgrace (imo) to be playing when my standard is like this cuz i think i cld be better but i'm not there.
anyway i heard that got 4 guys j1s coming in, 2 each from ri and tchs. if coach really take these 4 into the team , the guys team will oni have 2 j2s and i think it's really sad cuz i know they have been training very hard, putting in hours of pract on their own other than trg days but how cld they compare to other guys who've been playing for 4 yrs? and coach say 'if can i'll take all 4' into the guys team... and of course they'll have a higher chance of getting into quarters.. i dun think the guys noe anything abt it yet but compt is next week.. and coach haven't say his decision.
went union last nite. the guys so late la.. hai wo men stone ard until they come. was talking to pris. i think if you're too nice and easy-going you'll really get bullied in the real world. must know what one wants and go for it. i need to stop being so bo chap about stuff. and really, sch doesn't prepare us for the real world. so sad. survival of the fittest; society makes us what we are. i just... wish it wasn't that way. guess life isn't all peace and harmony. not if one wants to get things done, go places etc. need to have networking in place. i didn't understand tt when theresa, sharon, the director etc kept talking abt it at ihpc. mel mentioned it too. interpersonal relationships and having a wide circle of frenz / connections is impt. 'who knows when you might need their help' she said.
i just.. don't like it tt way, like.. using ppl n stuff as the main purpose for getting to know them. that's so.. calculating. den like you stop being frenz when they outlive their usefulness. but that's the real world. scary huh? i dun like it when ppl do things for each other and expect the favour to be returned. yar.. mabbe that's why i don't like to owe people. or mabe i'm reading too much into it. li shang wang lai hen zheng chang ma? whatever.
but isn't it nice just to help ppl because you want to?
because giving already has its own rewards.
